Lies? You guys think again.
L:
Everybody in the room that day saw how dead drunk I was to the extent I just knocked out in my expired contacts and you guys had to carry me and move me to the bed. My eyes were fucked the next day and I completely had no idea why. I did not even recall anything and still thanked you for bringing me back to rest safely. Until at night when I returned home, I decided to play calm after recalling things and not make a fuss because I wanted to deal this in a matured way, like you don't have to feel sorry and we don't have to get the fuck awkward for anything because I still wanted to be friends, asshole. You told me yourself I was the type of girl before everything happened, but people said I was because of everything that happened. Then the fuck were you apologetic for after everything has happened? Bullshit. What benefit do I get? Nothing. I had a boyfriend so whether you liking me or vice versa doesn't make a difference because you knew I clearly made my stand that I only loved one person. You were the one who called me to call you. I don't deny Ash and me were very curious but you know very clearly I wanted you to choose either of my good friend out of all your 'flowers' so what the fuck have you done to me bro? Remember you asked me if I will ever consider you if I ever break up. Remember my answer was 'We are impossible'. Do you fucking remember this, scum? I admit I asked if you were willing to leave the clique for me because my bf won't ever do this for me. You said yes and I was touched but I still answered, 'We are impossible' right? Whats intriguing is, you told her things you didn't even tell me about. I mean what the fuck? I should have knew you were such a guy when you decided to betray my good friend the last time. And told her about it. My bad but I no longer trust anybody. Fucking sweet talk me out of everything, did not tryna defend your brother who was my bf when I said I felt tied down because I cannot do things that I want etc, but I have never gotten him to change anything for me no matter how much it affected me (not only drinking guys, there are many more, don't be sensitive lol), and told me you would have supported your gf into doing things that I wanted. But I swear bro, I have never try too hard with you and you clearly knew I helped both my good friends but you were the reluctant one. If I wanted to have anything with you, when you said about you think you have feelings for me etc, I wouldn't have told you from the start and the end that we are not supposed to have feelings. When you told me or asked me about anything, I always make my stand clear, and you know it. I don't blame you, probably because you thought I'd never know about what you said that's why you defended yourself this way. But if you think I am disgusting, you are more disgusting bro. I have never ever gotten any benefits from you, whatever the fuck wise you think.
J:
Honestly I have no idea why every time when there is you around or anything related to you, I will act differently when I am drunk. I have no idea why you affect me so much. I have no idea why were you my priority. I have no idea why are you so influential in my life.
Remember you took me to meet the clique? Remember you called me to try out with A? I was grateful. For whatever you have done to tell me you did not prioritize me at all, I put this in mind and tell myself that you once did. Then after trying out with A, you decided to come out with something to break us up again remember? Got Yp and Yq to do fucked up shit like this. I have no fucking idea why you had to do this though. Probably because you were the one who brought me in and I do not deserve to be seeing them when you can't? (I am or will never say my clique or whatever shit it is)
Remember that day at work, I waited hours for you? But after that your 'ex' decided to come and fetch you. You said bye, and -phew- leaving me alone all behind.
Remember when you were with your ex still, we did not talk at all? I was really happy to be in the same class as you after not talking much for half a year, the 2nd semester even I was excited to be in the same class as you again. But being in the same class, we still did not talk much. Until when you broke up, you started to.
Remember how I tried to be there every time you are sad? Like going down from Yishun down to Yewtee because you told me you were sobbing.
Remember how you cried all the time you were at CJ drinking? I was away but people can go all the way out to call me to talk to you, remember what I told you? I did.
Remember because the last trip before going PP, S told me if the next time you're going to cry again the next time then he will stop drinking with you because it ruins the atmosphere? You see now why during PP it was so chaotic? At least I remembered telling you Yes and No when you asked me about L. I swear. I told this to A that day after I got sober. And I made it atmosphere even worse, I am not going to deny but at least I have been feeling bad for long enough.
Maybe PP was a bad choice, got to listen to things that hurt me so bad and created a love-hate relationship between us. Every time when I get the flashback of Y telling me you got close to me because you wanted to go back the clique angers me...
The clique, who did not respect you and made you as a joke among them. It wasn't the part about what they said about you, but why were you even a joke to them in the first place that angered me. I don't care what they actually say because ya, most probably they were just kidding but what have you done that you became a joke?
Then why are you prioritizing them so much and hurt me this way?
Remember all this, J? Then why didn't the fuck you trust me, not even a little?
Why the fuck you overlooked all our memories and listened to defensive stories?
She replied '[15/8/2014 3:17:57 PM] Jaslyn Quek: hahahaha fuck mai la'
And didn't reply me afterwards. Scum and A knew that I didn't want to go though.
And I wonder why you didn't want to go for Z's birthday lol. But really you are really good at changing stories and words. Like I introduced K to you in a way you hiam Scum kiamsiap and told you he very steady will help you pay, end up you tell him I gian his money this one damn legendary. I am telling you I have money. And hate how you make it sound like you were a saint. You raped kissed L, did sex positions, moaned in front of the guys, call them to unhook your bra. And you were sober. Just because I didn't dig and say stories, that doesn't mean you did not bullshit about anybody you think are your 'small circle of friends'. They were my friends, at least 2 of them who were really my good friends. Thanks for bullshitting. At least I have never planned to bullshit about you when I was sober, I only told people about your story in the clique and your nickname. Because I do not get the fuck why they are so important but not me, never ever me.
Z:
I really appreciate when you say you only trust J's words partially because you can never imagine I am such type of person. Hah, little did I expect I was that kind of person either. People can say whatever the fuck they want though. I have no idea how the fuck she thinks I will tell her any bad about anyone when I do not even trust her lol. I don't think I have to explain further since J said she wasn't sorry for doing these to me because she got to know a lot. A lot of selfish defensive stories from the guys, hah? Totally changed my perspective of guys. Guys are idiots.
K:
You want to talk about pain? Pain because you were my friend not hers but you trusted her instantly. Pain because you should know me better than anybody else because I tell you everything, but look what happened? Pain because I can never put you off my mind as a good friend because you were once so nice to me. But every time I thought of how you did not trust me, made me cry. Pain because I had to tell you I no longer want to be friends with you. Pain because you self-harmed. Pain because you didn't reply me after you self-harmed and when you did, you told me Scum forgave me. Pain, because you still trusted Scum and J after everything. Pain because you confronted me and insisted I lied when I did not. Pain, you guys think only y'all in pain? Do you get how much pain i was in? The pain A was feeling, it's within me. I did not give up on life no matter how fucked up it is and did not resort to alcohol or anything harmful even until today. That's why my eyes are fucked. Pain? I am in pain everyday. I had to cry when on a overseas trip, I had to cry during work, I had to cry sitting on a bus back home, I had to cry when eating, I had to cry when showering, I had to cry when A treated me like shit. I had to cry because I am in so much pain. You guys want to talk about pain, then what the fuck kind of pain am I in? Pain? You guys resorted to your kind of life and friends to go through the pain. I went through everything ALL BY MYSELF. You guys wanna talk about pain? Think again. Pain because you said I touched your sensitive area when I was drunk. J said I meant something sexual this way, Dude, if I get drunk and tired even if you were a 64 year old bald ugly man, if I feel comfortable with you I will still lean on you for support. No joke. Only if someone squeeze it, constantly grind on it or something then he or she is initiating something ok?? Pain, hah pain yea. Pain. Pain ah you guys have to say me until like that. But Z and you are still my good friends, no doubt lol.
Scum:
Wished I didn't delete my whatsapp though. I hate how I randomly called you down and you really came down. Like bro, if I really wanted you to come I would have given you full address and won't keep you waiting for my reply. I didn't even give you the unit number in the first place but you just magically popped out. I hate it because I told you things when I wasn't sober. But at least when I got sober after that I went like, 'I told you everything?! Shit' and you reassured me you won't say anything and won't affect you and her. Your reassurance and words do got my trust that I told you about L. I am an idiot. At least that day there were Z and K around and I got real sober after that. Like what the fuck I initiated sex, you are kidding me right? Kept touching me and remember, I put your arms way from me, I stood up and say, 'I am fine, really I am' remember? And how I avoided your eye contact because you looked like you wanted to kiss me. Remember? Initiate sex is it? Who do you think you are? Lol. I had my own boyfriend to look for. Good try knowing what I wanted from my bf and did it in place of him that I almost fell for you. Thought I controlled my feelings well until K said something that made me think I really did. If not Sir, there wouldn't be a second time. Why do you have to block me everywhere though, are you afraid of being exposed, Mr. Scum? Time will prove everything.
Shows how I always reject him cuz you see guys I am not interested.
Ridiculous how he told J I wanted to try. Plus Z's statement, I'm telling y'all I fucking do not want to.
Continued, 'off laptop' hahahaha clearly shows how much do I not want to talk about it.
How the fuck am I wanting this guy when I told the both of them individually before that I would be really happy if they get back together. Remember Mr, Scum on whatsapp? And you replied you don't know. Remember J? That time at the swimming pool by your condo? I even said the way he did things is because he cared but you just kept saying no and no. Lol.
Tryna spam call me on skype all the time and I clearly didn't give a fuck. He said something to 'threaten' me to pick up the call but look at my answer, cool as fuck, 'not affecting me' and still 'Missed call from'. Lol I rule above the kings people.
Yea, good enough you knew our conversations are always kidding.
J was always our topic, when I am sober it is always good. I always say, 'Haha, she happy jiu hao ma'. Lame people telling her I bullshitted about her. You guys are lame. The next picture should be showing how I changed the topic and decided not to talk about checking panties colour (humsup ah like I wanted to check his) but I have no idea where did it went, read it further. I have like 18 pictures showing these.
Not so easy to get over ok? How do I sound like I wanted him, I don't get it...
J was literally sleeping in class when faci was talking. So I really asked out of curiosity. Because actually we were not as close after she went back her clique and I no longer see them.
How the fuck do I sound like I badmouthed her all the time, I don't get it.
